Today

I tried to walk towards the train station with my head held high like this was something I do everyday, this whole head-into-the-city-for-work thing. People seemed so rushed. Like the world might end if they slowed down just a bit. One step slower and things would fall apart. I moved quickly with them, my subtle way of trying to fit in. I sat on the train with my book. My tummy growled, half hunger and half nerves. I forgot my earphones. And my pen. And gum. So I read all the way to Union Station instead. I applied my lip gloss over and over again. Before stepping off the train into the sea of silent commuters off to work, I took a deep breath. Today was a new day.

Yet, panic slowly came over me as I realized how terrible I am with directions when thrown into a new situation, or an unfamiliar place. I suddenly wasn't sure where to find the subway or what direction I should be going in. I let the crowd guide me, and stuck with the pack, hoping I'd go the right way. I jumped on the first subway I saw. And instantly knew I was on the wrong one. I switched lines. Got back on track. With 20 minutes to spare. I got off the subway in the right spot and let it all soak in. The faces passing me by from every single direction. God, what a crazy world we live in. I tried to picture where each face was going, what they're thinking, how they're feeling. What makes each person different from the next? Everything was so silent in my head. And for a second I stood still in the middle of the 8:30 am rush hour conjestion that defines so many people's lives. Everything moved around me. I love when that happens.

I slid on my shades and stepped outside. An easy way to make me feel more confident than I really am. And I walked with my head held high in the direction I knew was absolutely the right way. I started to get a little shaky, afraid I could maybe ruin something that in my mind was still so fresh, new and pristine. Like when you're little and you get one piece of paper to draw a picture on. Better not mess it up because you may not get another piece. The doors to 111 Queen Street swung open so easily as if they were expecting my arrival. I rushed to the washroom. And I saw myself in the mirror. My hair was a mess. Maybe my outfit wasn't as cute as I thought. But I told myself to breathe. Because I was here for a reason. I made a choice to make a journey for myself. And this was just the beginning. "So be great, Rhi," and with that my day started. Today.

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35 Lovely Comments:

Melanie said...

This is exactly how I feel every day. The Metro here in DC can be crazy.

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JEM - Aqua Bride said...

I lived in Toronto for 5 years and you brought everything back to me when I read this. I'm assuming that's where you are from all the places you mentioned. If it's not that's really eerie.

Kerry said...

Wishing you lots of wonderful new adventures at 111 Queen Street!

Denoja Kankesan said...

Go Rhi!!! Wishing you all the very best <3

Jacklyn said...

Ok, couple of things. One- LOVE the picture. Love the outfit, the smile, everything! Adorable! Second- I'm with you. In busy places like a station I always wonder where people are coming from, where they are going etc. I love making up stories about people. Good luck!!!

clearlytangled said...

good luck! love that picture of you. you are super gorgeous :)

April {April Foster Events} said...

Wow! you are beautiful!

theUngourmet said...

I would have been a nervous wreck! Glad you brought your sunglasses! Go get 'em girl! ;D

Truly Smitten said...

you're so gorgeous!

McCarthy Designs said...

Good luck in your new venture at 111 George Street! Your photo is lovely you look Gorgeous! xx

LouBoo said...

Wishing you luck - city commutes are the worst! I know some people just get into the groove but for me - something I always try to avoid. Going into the city for fun - now that's different. But for work - and having to arrive looking put together and in heels - yuk. I can never wait to leave and get back down south to the country/sea air! I am a country mouse I guess... x

Heather @ Gerber Days said...

Wow, I just love they way you worded this.

You are so dang cute! Gorgeous! Love your bracelet. I think I have the same one (Tiffany's?) :)

Good luck in your endeavors! It's scary to start something new, but it sounds like you are super brave.

Wishing you the best.

trishie said...

You know i get really nervous like you too on public transport.

On a different note, that's a great picture of you!

Helena - A Diary of Lovely said...

you look gorgeous!!
The daily commute is such ana experience, in London it's like everyone is in a rush, well we al are to be honest. Take it easy, it soaks on you and then it's a breeze
xoxoo

Scientific Housewife said...

Great narrative and love the picture :)

Punctuation Mark said...

good luck and enjoy the rest of the day... love your description of how the day started...

ComplyKated said...

What a beautiful post (and picture!). Best of luck in this new adventure.

Trish said...

Hey beautiful friend, I am proud of you and wishing you all the best in your new endeavors. You are not only gorgeous but a brilliant writer and I really enjoyed this little story of your day. And don't even get me started on that picture of you, you are a knock out!! XOXO I owe you a long email! Mwah!

Ashley said...

what a treat to get to experience your beautiful writing style. i'd love to see more of these please and thank you!

congrats on your big day, you've earned it!

Iva said...

good luck!!! you are so pretty!! :)

Kristin said...

I hope the rest of your day is going great! And I totally used to wonder about things like that when I was on the metro. : )

FabulousFashions4SensibleStyle said...

All the best on your new adventure, Rhiannon, but you looked lovely on your first day and I know it will be a success for you!

Liesl :)

P.S. Your writing is wonderful!

Wendy said...

You are perfect, gorgeous and eloquent ~ I hope you had a fabulous day!

brooke said...

oh my goodness!! i am a little lost since i am new round these parts and not up to date on this new journey of yours...but i am loving the way you weave a story!!! definitely will be back for more!!!

and i want to be in that sea of people...just for a moment...

Francis Family said...

Great post! Can't say i've ever been in that situation before, sounds fun. lol
LOVE the picture, you look dang cute!! LOVE IT!

Katie said...

you can so do it! loved this post, VERY raw :)

Angela said...

Thank you for stopping by my blog <3 I'm so glad I found yours, I completely love it! Your writing is just beautiful. I can't wait to see more <3

dognbird said...

You go sister! Best of luck with your new adventure.

Sarah said...

I love people watching in the crazy places! Most of the time though, crowded spaces completely overwhelm me. Good luck on all your new adventures! And thanks for stopping by my blog!

shari @ little blue deer said...

Great picture, Rhiannon! So classic and gorgeous! A first day at a new job? I always freak out a little bit in new situations, and start to doubt myself just a bit. It always turns out fine, and I know you were FABULOUS!

Debbie said...

That is a great photo! I loved it.

Short Southern Momma said...

What a great post! I live out in the boonies and sometimes wish I was in all that hustle and bustle....I am so excited for so glad to be along for the ride. xoxo

Liz said...

Wow, what a day. I felt as if I was there with you. You write so well.

You are so pretty, love your picture.

ox

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sara said...

What a terrific post, so beautifully written - I felt as if I was there with you on the bustling streets of NYC! Good luck with your new venture! (Oh, and that picture of you is stunning!).