What Would You Wait Two Decades For?

Tomorrow is a big day. A day I've been waiting for - are you ready now? - 22 years. I was born with a lazy eye. Actually, both my eyes had really bad muscles problems. By age 3, I had undergone three surgeries to try and fix them. The doctors ended up over-compensating for the weakness in the left eye and for whatever reason failed to fix a slew of other problems that plagued both.

Since then my left eye has become weak to the point where now it has a mind of it's own. My brain over the past two decades has adapted to using just my right eye and as a result I hardly see out of my left eye. It's a wonder I was able to ever get a license or successfully compete collegiate level gymnastics. When I am super tired, I shy behind my big sunglasses because I feel embarrassed by how much my eye tends to turn outwards. Often, people think I am looking beyond them. And at least five times a week I get terrible headaches around my eyes from straining them. For years doctors told me I couldn't get my eyes fixed because "it won't make a difference," and "there aren't any doctors who will do that."

Until I switched family doctors last November, asked for a recommendation to a specialist, was at the eye specialist's office a week later and that same day had my surgery scheduled within the next 8 months. Even better, the cost for this dream surgery is covered by Canadian Health Care. I was deemed 'a perfect candidate for the surgery.' I cried and cried that day in the doctor's office. I cried big lovely tears of complete happiness.

Tomorrow at 10 a.m. I'll be at the hospital. At noon I'll be going under for the procedure. And hopefully by dinner time tomorrow (aside from some obvious discomfort), I will have two straight, beautiful eyes, that I have been dreaming off for so long now. I have a scheduled post for Friday's Featured Goodness (don't miss out, it's going to be lovely) but I wanted to keep you in the loop if you don't hear from me for a while. Oh and in case your wondering; here's one of the few pictures of me as a little girl where my eyes do in fact look normal and straight. And then that's me circa February 2010. Funny how we change over time isn't it? Hugs to all of you lovelies xoxo

Me

49 Lovely Comments:

I'm Lindsay! said...

I can only imagine how excited you must be! Good luck sweetie!!

Melanie said...

I'm so happy for you. Best of luck <3

Melanie@UnravelledThreads

Rosanna said...

I wish you all the best sweetie

sara said...

I'm so excited and happy for you! I'll be sending lots of warm wishes, thoughts and prayers your way for an uneventful procedure and speedy recovery!

Shelley Ann said...

thats so exciting! good luck with everything!

Rachel said...

congratulations!

DiamondsandTulle said...

I'm so happy for you. Thanks for sharing such a personal post. Best of luck and congrats!

xx Vivian @ http://diamondsandtulle.blogspot.com

Sweet Southern Prep said...

Good luck! I have a lazy eye too, but thankfully mine is still strong. Hope it stays that way for a long time. Hope your surgery goes well. Saying a prayer. :)

Caroline said...

Saying a prayer and sending you much love!!! xo

Breanne at Bella Vita said...

You are absolutely beautiful in both photos, but I'm so excited for you since this is something you've wanted for so long. Best of luck!!

McCarthy Designs said...

I am so excited for you! I pray that it all goes well for you and when you are all finished you will be even more gorgeous then you are now, but most importantly I pray that the headaches will go away and the sight will return to your eye! xx

LouBoo said...

Oh Rhiannon, I will be thinking of you today! As I said in my email you are one brave girl! But the results will be amazing and as you say - 22 years? Well that's surely long enough! I hope it all goes swimmingly and you emerge after feeling fine. My son was tested for a lazy eye when he was a baby; seems fine now, but it's wonderful what doctors can do! Take the very best care, Louise x

Angela said...

Best of luck sweetie!! I'm sure everything will go flawlessly <3

Closet full of hopes and dreams said...

You were the cutest kid! And you are beautiful now, but I really wouldn't be able to tell that's you. :) Glad you found the "right" doctor. Hope it turns out perfectly and your recovery will be a smooth ride!

Bernadine said...

Hi

Good luck with your operation. I'm glad you are so excited. You've waited long enough!!!! :)

Café Bellini said...

Very moving... I'm so excited for you! I hope the operation goes well, good luck!!!

Lucy said...

I wish you all the luck possible :) Your baby picture is adorable!

Ashley R said...

Oh, I'm so glad you'll be getting something you've dreamed of for so long! Best of luck and a speedy recovery with minimal discomfort :)

Design Esquire said...

Good luck! I hope everything goes well!!

Jacklyn said...

Good luck good luck good luck. I would've never noticed but I know what it's like when others may not notice but one thing bothers you so I'm so happy for you! I'm hoping for a speedy recovery!

Lenore said...

Good luck!

XO
Lenore

Becca said...

Aw, you are beautiful now.
But I'm glad you're having your surgery so you won't have to get sick and feel your headaches so often.
I hope everything turns out wonderfully!

Fee-AMore said...

I have spoken to you the night before and sent over my thoughts and blessings. Everything's gonna be a-okay. We know that. ;)

Please rest up more after that too okay, love bug! XO

Jesse said...

Oh girl! I am so excited for you! Saying a little prayer for! Hugs!

Kristin said...

You are in my prayers right now lady. Best wishes for a speedy recovery and amazing result!!

p.s. Our blog has moved! We would love for you to visit us at our new site: http://www.bonbonrosegirls.com/
Unfortunately, if you followed us with Google Friend Connect you'll have to re-follow but everything else is the same! Hugs, K

Wendy said...

Yay! I am so excited for you. When my daugher (now 9) was 3 she was diagnosed with amblyopia (eye turned in and loss of vision associated). Her vision in her "bad" eye was 20/1000. We patched and patched trying to get vision back and strengthen the muscles to keep it straight. Her vision improved but the turning did not. Anyway, when she was 6 she had allignment surgery (actually on both eyes) ~ she did beautifully! Even though her eyes were red from surgery, she couldn't help but keep looking at herself in the mirror! Now at 9 her eyes are perfectly straight, and her vision is 20/20 and 20/40. Good luck tomorrow ~ I will be thinking of you!

Bumpkin on a Swing said...

Tears of joy rolling down my face for you my friend, I can only imagine how much you have wanted this knowing your demeanor.
Good luck, and get well soon, we miss you and can't wait fo your return!

clearlytangled said...

oh good luck! i hope it went well!

I BLEED PINK said...

I am so excited and happy for you. I know you will be lovely as ever after surgey. I will say prayer for you!

g e o r g i a said...

You are so Beautiful! Congrats, and hugs and Mwah!
Thank you for visiting my little blog, it is always a pleasure having you :)

Holly said...

aww good luck!!!

Punctuation Mark said...

I send you the best wishes for your surgery and you get all you've been wishing for and beyond... will look forward to hear more from you and the great success of your surgery!

The Zhush said...

How exciting! (Your photos here are lovely)....best of luck with everything, rest up and feel good!

Francis Family said...

aw good luck hun!! That must be so exciting for you! You are SUPER gorgeous!
xoxo
ps: I LOVED that you called me "Skiny Minny", that is totally one of my nicknames!! I thought that was awesome! :)

Simone said...

I am thinking of you gorgeous girl and am so happy that you are having your surgery....very exciting. Hopefully those headaches and hiding behind your sunglasses will be a thing of the past.

See you special girl! xoxo

Debbie said...

I am so happy for you! Can't wait to hear how it turns out and I wish you only the best.

Josh and Char said...

Good luck, So happy for you! You are gorgeous! What a cute little girl you were. I can see some resemblance though. Will be sending good vibes your way tomorrow.

Ashley said...

Yay! So exciting, Rhi!!!!!! It's such a big big day :-) Can't wait to hear how happy you are!

10x desserts said...

You are so brave! You look gorgeous in all of the photos you've shared. Best of luck to you for a speedy and hopefully painless recovery!

Liz @ LivingMySweetLife said...

I hope all is well!! Can't wait to hear how everything went! <3

and flowers pick themselves said...

hope everything went well! take care!

xo Alison

megan. said...

praying for you, sweetheart! hope it all goes so well! good luck!

Katie said...

that is SO exciting! i'm thrilled for you sweet girl! you are so gorgeous i can't imagine it possibly for you to get any prettier, but i know this will make you feel SO much better about your eyes and also will take away a LOT of the pain!!! prayers comin' your way!!! xo

Meg said...

So happy for you, Rhi! You are gorgeous! I hope you are feeling well! Can't wait to hear from you! I miss you!! :)

www.meg-land.blogspot.com

xx

Casa Mia * My House * said...

Best of luck. Speedy recovery. I'll be thinking of you. I too was born with a lazy eye. I have some pictures that remind me. I was operated when I was 9 (long time ago). My left I is still weak but it's straight. Keep well.

Fé... said...

Woww... what a story. I just cannot imagine what you've been going through. Since I've always been as healthy as a horse. But like you say, it's amazing how people change, and I think you don't just change but improve. Warm wishes to you, sweetheart. Best of luck for you :)

michelle b @ every little thing said...

best wishes for the surgery of your dreams...i have the same problem, only my eyes do that because of myasthenia gravis...
this will be an amazing wonderful change for you!

Slamdunk said...

I am late to comment on this one. I hope everything went well for you with the procedure and that you are happy with the results.

Trish said...

My darling lovey,

I know by now you have made it on the other side of your operation, and have done so, so brilliantly!

Your are so gorgeous on the outside, which is so apparent, and what continues to impress me each week is how transparant your beauty is through the inside, in your thoughts, actions and words.

LOVE LOVE LOVE - and more love than you know. Always and forever, your Trishy xoxx